May you live all the days of your life.

i am so happy. perhaps it is the 300+ mg of caffiene talking. perhaps it is the fact that for the first time in a very long while, i feel totally comfortable with where i am in life. i went to lunch last thursday with a very old friend. she assured me that being anxious about the future is not worthwhile. she assured me that where ever i go, where ever i end up, Christ is already there. i think, inside, i already knew that. but it was nice to hear it. it was nice to feel that sense of comfort.
so i have felt at peace. lately, i have felt as if i may have an anxiety disorder. but now, i don't really feel that. i feel happiness. i feel love. i feel joy. i know that joy is not an emotion. it is a kind of eternal feeling. even with anger and hatred and saddness, joy still exists. and i actually feel that now. it is amazing.
life has been nice for a while. i am content. sarah and i went to see eisley. we went to dinner with my parents. they were remarkable. eisley was remarkable. i bought a bike. it is great. i started a quilt. it is out of ties and some fabric my grandmother gave me.
all in all... i am living every day. i am looking for ways to glorify God. and i am happy!